Choosing Joy as I Strive for Justice
cognitive dissonance (excerpt)
awarded a gold key by the scholastic art and writing awards in 2018
A whistle is a death sentence
Skittles are a crime
Maybe what’s poppin’ off
Will be seen on prime time
Or
No one will hear
It’ll be like the kid’s soul
Just up and disappeared
Say one thing
Say another
Do you hear what I’m saying my brother?
Words fly and I’m not sure why
You can’t seem to walk and talk at the same time
It’s too much
For some of us to sit by
We take to our laptops
And we start to reply
We start a conversation
We try to be patient
We look at our frustrations
And refuse to be afraid and
We start a sensation
Need a break on occasion
We’re devoted to this
We break down the situation
It takes some tears
And self examination
It could take a year
It could take a generation
Whatever it takes
Till our country has healed
From the sunburn of racism
The wound’s
Been revealed
Say one thing
Say another
Do you hear what you’re saying
My brother?
Words fly
And I’m not sure why
But you can’t seem to walk and talk
At the same time.
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- mimi/ yasmine bolden
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I was doing a lot of growing while I was writing this poem; I wrote a short, separate poem to the instrumental version of Big Pun's Still Not a Player in 2018 after attending the National Museum of African American History & Culture's Young Historian's Institute (where I learned about the socio-political origins of rap and its links to poetry) and it inspired this poem. I wrote and submitted this poem to the Scholastic Art & Writing Awards in 2018 and it was the first writing competition I had ever entered. This was a way for me to process the political goings on from 2016 forward and my new awareness of social issues and the activists working to fix them. 2018 still had a lot of growing to do, though. The first part of this poem, which is not included in this excerpt, calls out contradictory mentality and hypocrisy, even though its author would later learn the personal can be political and that she, too, needed to examine how cognitive dissonance plays out in her life.